Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. Do not think so much. Keep it simple. There is a lot to do today, and it will be done without much thought.
Edwin, my therapist, suggested Wellbutrin to help cope with the raw emotions that appear after years of substance abuse. I am working on tapering my nicotine use down, so it may help with that as well. It is not a permanent medication. I will take the next step with my primary care physician.
Today, I will continue my progress with shaping my environment and mind for the greater good.
My father was recently admitted to St. Ann’s hospital for an abscess in his shoulder. It started as a localized fever, spreading into cellulitis and the abscess which needs to be drained. They are treating him with IV antibiotics. He is staying on the third floor, just above where I used to work. The nurses are overworked and underappreciated, all compounded by the group-think behavior of women. Immigrant nurses are faced with racism, even from a veteran nurse, who is also an immigrant- my mother. It may be necessary bullying or the type that drives a further wedge into the continuum of care, I cannot be certain for my experience working under nurses as a straight, almost white man, was certainly different from those who came to the United States for a better life. I am sure he is in good hands and that he is an easy patient for them. He is an anxious guy and I was worried about him. But these things are out of my control.
Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. There are many things out of my control. The eating habits of my parents, my mother’s addiction to shopping and food. My brother’s addiction to his career and achieving what has gone wrong for my mother’s side of the family. In all honesty, I don’t know my brother’s psychology well. It could be like mine, or vastly different as he is a boy genius. All of these things are out of my control and should never be focused on lest these individuals voice a problem. They have to voice their own concern with it, identify it as leading their life negatively, and want to change. It is not my right nor within my scope of practice to change them. Within my narrow scope is myself and the environment that I inhabit. That is it. I can change my life. The betterment of myself may have positive byproducts for my family. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
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