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  • 02/03/24

    Starting a new chapter of my life today. I move from the obsession with deviance to a simpler and more humane life. I know the days ahead of me will be a challenge, but I must face the consequences of my decisions. My aim is to regain control of my…

  • 02/02/24

    I’ve failed to cut back on amphetamine consumption. The substance that I currently abuse is touted to be one of low-potential. Therefore, my abuse of this prescribed drug is counterintuitive, and should’ve never happened in the first place. By taking more than prescribed, the duration of negative effects is elongated.…

  • 01/30/24

    It has felt like an eternity of browsing pornographic content and pulling at my member. I have continued to do everything that is wrong for myself. I am not alive and well but my addictions are. I hope to look back at these times from a better time distant in…

  • 01/29/24

    Not happy with my misuse of my prescription amphetamines. Took a normal dose this morning, sat around, dosed another 100mg around 1-2PM. I may have to abstain from using for a week or so. I believe there are about 20 doses left. I’ve always tried to omit weekends after I…

  • 01/28/24

    Another down day following the artificial ups of amphetamines and pornography. I feel lethargic and anticipate either continued struggles or reparations for consistency. The accounts I had used for transient pleasures are deleted. I must ration the remaining amphetamines and start work/therapy this week. One small step at a time.…

  • 01/27/24

    I struggle to find the words to describe my current state. I haven’t slept and spent the latter 12 hours “stim fapping”. The climax was watery and mostly piss. I currently have no shame due to exercising the lack of self respect. I now await the effects of the second…

  • 01/26/24

    This is the first entry of my personal ramblings. I have struggled with consistency my entire life, shown by the disorganization of my writing, but hope to find accountability in this and record my future of positive endeavors. My goal for this personal blog is to create a good habit…